As much as I like social media, I don’t like how I feel as if I have to seem like I have it all together all the time. I look at my pictures on instagram and Facebook, and I see all smiles and laughter.. but what aren’t shown are all the tears, the anger, the numbness, the frustration, or the vulnerability I feel.
There are days I fight a battle inside between a lack of motivation and restlessness.. Days when I am buzzing from energy because of being around friends, and some days when I feel as if I am not close to anyone. Some days, I can tell it’s just going to be “one of those days,” where I just feel like I can’t focus, as if I’m not all there and it would just be easier to stay in bed.
Today was one of those days.
I felt a heavy energy within me, today, but instead of telling myself how I “should or should not” feel, I’m just letting myself feel. Because I am human. I am not all smiles and laughter. I am full of all types of emotions.. and they are all valid, even if they are uncomfortable.
I just need to remind myself of that sometimes.